Life is changing

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Last time,

I used to SMS a lot,

Last time,

I used to CALL a lot,

Last time,

I used to FB a lot,

Last time,

I used to being humor,

Last time,

I used to go out a lot,

Last time,

I used to talks a lot,

but now,

CHANGE, its totally CHANGE !!

HOWEVER !!

I want to CHANGE MYSELF !!!

I WOULD NOT BE THE OLD ME ANYMORE !!!

After all,

Who would look backward in life ??

Never regret in self decision,

If you are chosen so,

One must be responsible for it !!

Although sometimes... i do regret of decision i choose,

but isnt that a negative thinking ???

Why not look forward and continue the road happily and positively??

If speaking of REGRET,

I believe everyone regrets a lot in his/her pass on

different kind of reasons,

Such as decision perhaps??

but there is a much better way to overcome it..

ie.

LOOK FORWARD !!!
MOVE FORWARD !!!
NEVER STOPS RUNNING !!!

I want a new life, therefore,

i will change myself,

I believe that dear lord Jesus would guide me in my path of life.. :)

I hopes a lot to migrate from this country to be frank..

I hopes a lot to study abroad ..

and starts my new life in another country...

However, this place is still my home till the time being,

We never knows wad will happen next...

I WOULD WAIT PATIENTLY FOR MY RIGHT TIME !!

Right time for "her" to appear ??
Right time for me to become successful ??
Right time ...............................
...............................
...............................

Bla Bla Bla..

Too much to say..

and.. there are much more things that is worth for me

to Aim for
to Observe at,
to Appreciate for,

Life never stops, not even a millisecond..
Coz.. Life goes on every single moment..

BLOODY STRESSSSSS!!

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I'm gonna go for a serious War Zone in 1 day time..

And i'm still preparing..

My preparation??

Well..... All i can say is just damn BLOODY STRESSS !!!

I just need a PASS, isnt that possible??

Its my resit examination,

I've failed once, i cant afford to failed once more..

Without it, i wouldnt be able to graduate next month..

AMONG ALL THE SUBJECTS

Perhaps this is the most stressful subjects that i failed out of 20+ subjects.

WTH ??? Juz bcoz of 1 subject out of so many subjects,

i wouldnt get my cert ? My graduation ?

Sad to say, YESSS !! INDEED !!!

Which means,

All these while i've been spending my time for more than 2 years

in this stressful college life are rubbish if i fail.. T.T

I cant try my best !! I must do my best !!

Practice makes perfect ??

Yeap, thats true.. and i'm still practising from day till night,

But also, thats the end of my social life??

Well, i would say no..

But its just stressssss...

My life is changing this year,

Love?

Money?

Study?

Career?

Hopes?

Friends?

Thinking?

Family?

Mindset?

Faith?

Body?

EVERYTHING IS CHANGING IN ME

I wouldnt be explaining each and everything above why is it all changing,

As i cant finish explaining here and its a LOOOOOOOOOOONG story

Well, all i can say here is just

Life still goes on, i know..

Earth is still rotating

But

Life changing as well..

In the pass few days,

I've been thinking a lot of different things,

A lot of friends ask me,

Why didnt i get into a relationship,

When speaking of relationship,

I would ...perhaps ...answer ...because...,

I don have the ability to maintain a relationship at this point of time.

I cant even settle my own problems,

If i start a relationship now,

I afraid that it would not be a long term 1,

So, the best answer would be,

Its not the right time yet..=(

Although a lot of my friends are all in a relationship,

Well, may be this is wad we call, 同人不同命吧..

人总是会不断地改变

以前幽默的我

现在。。

成为了沉默的我...

我想。。
我在你的生命
已消失了吧？
我想念以前的你，
我想念无时无刻找我的你

一切都改变了

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也许我应该醒了。。

因为我真觉得她改变了

不再是我认识的她？？

在你还没进营之前，

你会无时无刻的找我

在你进营以后，

收电话前也会跟我说声，

但现在呢？？

过了年之后，

我知道你的生活改变了，

在你回营那一天，

你就只是跟我说了一声Bye!!

就一直到晚上都没找我，

但是你却还可以用mobile facebook post东西在你的wall.

我就知道收电话前，你都没打算找我!!

变了变了。。一切都变了

也许你在营里面时改变了你的想法??

我还记得你回来过年时说过，

“我那么年轻，又不是没机会”

我觉得以前的你是不会这么说，

也许因为你在营里的追求者有好几个，

使你的自信变大了？？

我不知。。这也只是我的猜测，

当我跟你说你变了，

你却说我想太多。。

我也记得

有人跟你说过当我站在你隔壁时，

像你保护我，多过我保护你，

我想你应该很介意这一句话吧？？

后来你也有一封信息写

“才不要拥抱你，你那么瘦！”

我看了。。我就知道你其实很介意，很在意

你却还跟我说开玩笑罢了

但在那个时候，

我一点都笑不出来。。

后来我真的很确定，你真的。。变了。。

也许这就是人的想法吧？？

我改变不了你，

Decision is still on your hand.

我只能默默的祝福你，

很多人说祝福是一种幸福。。

但其实不是。。

祝福朋友是幸福。。

但祝福喜欢的人。。

却是辛苦。。

人就是那么的矛盾，那么的犯贱。。=(